Universe and it's conspiracies

 Yesterday while scrolling through a YouTube short's comment section, I came across a comment that says how he/she believes that the universe conspires whenever someone tries to solve it's mysteries . The commenter shares his personal experience on how he dived deeper, read quite a number of books and intended to gather all of the information available on universe but right at that moment when he was half way in the rabbit hole he got involved in worldly affairs and got distracted from this topic.

                                      And this is not the first time when this thing came in front of me, there were earlier instances , like this one time when my father, also a philosophy enthusiast, told me the same thing , how he got into trouble and got involved in other life matters right when he believes he was on certain stage of supreme knowledge. 

                      One other such text I read in the book ' Forty rules of love' by Elif Shafak, where Shams of Tabriz explains how a person get distracted when he was on his path of knowing the truth, how the supreme power tests it's seeker of there worthiness to behold the knowledge how getting on a certain stage of knowing and then comming down of it is common in your path of seeking truth. You reach a certain stage then you will get tangled in embodiments and ego like mental waves and fall down until you know your self. You win you lose and the cycle repeats untill you become deserving of the knowledge you are seeking. 

  I ponder upon the possible explanation, many things came in my mind when I was on it, I wondered whether it was the absence of companion that is stopping us from knowing about the supreme consciousness. Just like Shams of Tabriz who can't bear the burden of knowledge alone and set for a journey to find his companion,who is on the same mental stage as him, to share his knowledge with. Is it impossible for us to bear it that's why we don't get it? For I know the importance of having a companion, a person to share your secretes, your knowledge, your inventions with.

                                       I remember the protagonist of the book '1984' by George Orwell, how desperate he was for a companion, for him to say that it doesn't matter whether it is a friend or enemy as long as they have basic understanding, as long as they can talk. 

Having supreme knowledge in the world we are living in without a companion, will make you like Winston Smith from the book '1984' - only conscious person in the crowd of robotic machine like humans. You will at one point doubt your own sanity, you for ones can accept yourself as an insane person but the possibility of the truth you are holding dear turning out to be a lie, is destroying your peace. That much heavy is the weight of truth you and I alone are not able to withstand it as we as a matter of fact are just a fragment of the supreme consciousness!

 So in conclusion start the journey of knowledge, when universe will find you worthy enough you will get what you work hard for.